I'm gonna draw a picture
A picture with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor blade
I'll draw it on my wrist
As I draw this picture a fountain will appear
And as this fountain flows
My trouble's dispear....

It wasn't a suicide attempt ;; it was an escape from
everything awful. When we cut, we control our own pain,
& we make it stop whenever we want. Physical pain relieves
mental angiush. For that brief moment, the pain of cutting
is the only thing in the cutter's mind. & when the others come
back, they're weaker. Drugs do that too, but not like
cutting ;; nothing is like cutting. </3 172 days

advantage of her was all you took. what you don`t
realize is she  [ only ] went that far with you so you
would like her. want her. say you need her. but in
the end, she found only that she was wrong & now
she`s left with the memories of how you used her ..

i love this crazy, tragic sometimes
almost magic, awful, beautiful life.
our laughs --» [ limitless ]
our memories --» [ countless ]
our friendship --» [ endless ]

I know you [never] meant to do
Everything you put me through
Its okay I forgive you
Just know that when you see me cRiNgE sometimes
I’m trying to rid the poison from my mind

and you go && blow it...
like everyone knows you will

cross my heart hope to die
swear I wont say what happened that night
starting today things are going to be alright
the best you tried, yea you did fine
no better then fine, perfect in my mind
in fact i wish your heart was mine

(I no that youve prolly read this a million times, but really read it… I mean don’t we all wish that…) I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who'd throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who'd bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old play station games and then let me win. A guy who'd make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He'd play with my hair all the time and surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with and lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other and squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly, someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile.

somehow you always end up running
through my head don't ask me why ,
after all the lies i don't know why i
still care anymore but somehow i just
can't let go. maybe it's the thought of
you coming back one day but you
better have a clue && realize i have
feelings too, it's not always about you..*

Do you ever miss me? I know we see each other every day but do you ever miss the way we used to be? When we used to talk and laugh and flirt? When you used to purposely bump into me in the hall just so you could see me look at you and smile. Do you miss our conversations? And what about our dumb sarcasm that only you and I understood? Do you ever miss any of that? I think that maybe you do, because sometimes when I look at you, you'll randomly look at me and stop what your doing just so you can look into my eyes like you used to... and even though it only lasts for two seconds, you miss that. I cant be the only one who does?

Call me a slut. Call me a whore.
Call me whatever. I've heard it
before. Say that I'm fake. Say
that I lie. Say what you want.
You won't see me cry. Because I
know none of it's true. Hah, what the hell life

is full of secrets and lies,
so when you get screwed over
d o n 't b e s u r p r i s e d

let's slow dance
& be the couple
Everybody wishes they could be
let's walk in the rain
& hold hands the whole time
let's look at the stars
&& kiss all night
let's take it slow
then speed it up
let's take stupid pictures
&& laugh 'til we can't breathe
Let's be friends
let’s be lovers
let's be together
you & Me

& I wonder what goes through his mind
when his beautiful eyes meet mine

all i dream for is someone who will
cuddle with me and tell me im
beautiful when im crying my eyes out

You know, its a little weird,
having people look at me with you &
be like, why the hell is she with him
she could get so much better,
well guess what, what they dont know is,
there isnt any better, and even if there was
i wouldn't want it cause all i want is y o u

Think about what you say..
Because it's a fact..
No matter how hard you try…
You can never take your words back

scared to get attached again like you
have this fear that every person you start
to like is going to bre/ak your heart

a lonely girl sits in her room
the thoughts and memories are still in her head
the very last words to her he said
"i think we're better off friends"
while shes thinking
"i think i'm better off dead".

like my favorite record
you're a little overplayed
and like my favorite summer
you'll never fade away

Why am I the mirror of your heart,
Reflecting without depth your deepest pain,
Revisiting your hell again, again,
As though you were a well-wrought work of art?
Why do I vicariously take part
In suffering you barely can sustain,
Witnessing your agony in vain,
Tracing chaos too profound to chart?
Each night obsessively I come to you,
Eager to devour your bitter fruit,
Uneasy through the doldrums of my day.
Watching is, alas, what I can do,
As though my gaze were contribution mute,
Sharing your ordeal in some small way.

with anyone else, if i knew i didnt stand a chance, i'd make myself move on & get over it, but with him for some reason, i dont even want to try. i'd rather put my heart out there, risking that it will probably get broken, rather than miss out on an opportunity with someone i care so much about.

And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic.
But when I say let's keep in touch,
I really mean I wish that you'd grow up.
This is the first song for your mix tape.
It's short just like your temper,
Somewhat golden like the afternoons
We used to spend before you got too cool.if you think he's the one.. you want, the one you love, & the one that can
make you happy no matter how long
you've liked him & no matter what  ..
other people say, you should keep \
trying & waiting

I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That i know will never come..

lets drive into the sunset, sing love songs. 
we'll make unkeepable promises& swear
we'll never love anyone else _____ ;;     <3

 people say i've changed
 but i'm finally just being
  - -» |[ m y s e l f ]| «- -

As I stand here tonight & look up at the huge sky filled with all those stars I think of you. I think of the times we were together & I think of the times we looked up at the very same sky. And then I realized how much I miss you. I thought I could get through it, I thought I would be OK. But how can I be? Without you I stand alone in the huge world... I stand alone.

she will chase you around for awhile but there's going to be a day when she's going to stop running in circles around you .. she's going to get over you && at that very moment, you're ;; going to wish you had let her catch you

Just let me live...
let me make mistakes...
let me cry...
let me laugh...
let me make my own decisions...
let me have your trust...
let me know you believe...
Just let me grow up...

I guess that i'm wrong for falling in love, but you're
still the one that i'm dreaming of. I guess that it's you i
want to hold onto, but you're holding onto someone else..
-- The Ataris ;; Broken Promise Ring ;; --

So, please, just be patient. I'm so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like i'm this strong girl who can get through everything, but inside i'm very fragile. I've had so many things
thrown at me, & each one has only made a crack. What i'm afraid of is shattering

i probably shouldnt be telling you this but no matter what you do to me, i'm still here ... for some crazy reason i'll stick around through the bad times-& the fights .. i'll make up excuses for why you didn't call, why you never cared; i'll keep coming back for more even when you push me away. i think i'm just staying around so that one day when i finally do leave for good, you'll look back & say wow, that girl really did love me.

people are going to want you,
need you, exceed you, take you,
beat you, love you, hate you,
play you, rate you, save you, &
break you--but thats not what makes you.

i'll move on but you are going to have
to spend the rest of your life knowing
you turned your back on true love. <3
           - Cruel Intentions *

People don't keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people, like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know.

the best things in life don't happen unless you take risks. risk yourself and throw your heart out onto the table. be who you are and hope people accept you. if they don't, too bad. always be real, never fake. smile when you're happy, cry when you're sad, never hold your emotions inside. let yourself risk getting hurt, let yourself try something new. follow your heart and do what you feel is right. not what other people tell you to do. fall in love; take a chance. hope the other person feels the same. love is a risk, it could bring either pleasure or pain. sometimes both. life is a gamble, you never know what it'll bring. live in the moment and don't dwell on the past. find the good in everybody. think positive; do positive. break the rules and take a chance of getting caught. dance in the rain when everyone else is inside. don't follow the crowd. who cares if you fit in ? wear your emotions on your sleeve and dive into love..

When i was afraid of everything,
i was never afraid to love you, & i could
love you again, i could. -- Dawson's Creek –

lets start over.lets forget all our problems.
lets put our past behind us and never
bring it up again like they said, we
can't live or love the past.lets throw
all our problems away. i'll give you my trust, if you
give me yours.Lets fall in love... the right way

 Everybody's been in love but how come we don't know that it's true love 'till it's over? Maybe theres no one or two or three or four or even five. Maybe there is no such thing as true love. And we just keep on dressing up, we keep pretending to be something that we're not. We lose ourselves in something that we hope is better than what we think we are. What if the something that we're looking for just doesn't exist?
- boys and girls   

If you wanna tell someone how you feel then say it,
pain only lasts for a minute but regret
| L a s t s - a - L ii F e T ii M e |

If only i had one wish, i'd want a million trillion
lifetimes that i could spend with you. fall in love
with you again and again.. * The Ataris

all i want is one chance` one kiss `one night..
  to show you what you mean to me. one chance
 to spend one day with you... to show you how
  we`re so alike. one kiss to prove that we`re
 more than friends. one night to hold you tight.

last time my heart was broken, 
i thought that i was through
i swore i would never love you again, 
& believe that this was true.
but, then you walked into my life,
& the moment your eyes met mine, 
i knew that you were worth loving,
just one more time

 sometimes the feelings we start to have again
  are the feelings that never really went away.

the test of love doesnt come when you're together
 it comes when you part ways [ & ] realize that in
 s p i t e of  " breaking up " the love is still there ;;

sometimes even though you're having a good time, 
 you cant help but stop and think 
 about how much you miss the old times

and she sat there for hours thinking and recollecting on how things used to be and she laughed and she cried and she couldnt help but think of what she wouldnt do to get them back to that way once again when her life actually had a purpose

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears float down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

you're looking quite shy, sugar
you've got some heat on that stare
you've got them tattered blue jeans on.
and you're doing that thing with your hair.
and this bed could use a secret,
and these pounding hearts could keep it.
if you could, then i could, i swear

My friend, if I could give you one thing, I would wish for you the ability to see yourself as others see you. Then you would realize what a truly special person you are.

you  know that boy that you  can never
get out of your head? the one that
seems to  relate to everything  you  do,
every  song,  every word?  the one that,
at the mere mention of  his  name, your
entire  face lights up?  the one that has
full   capacity    to  break   your   heart.
yeah,THAT'S Y0U

Don't need no drugs, you're my chemical.
Now I'm dependent, swear I'm clinical.
Addicted to those glances, taking chances tonight;
I need a fix in those herion eyes..

let me raise, let me fall
let me breathe... i wanna lose control i'm not afraid to lose it all
let me break let me crawl
cause i will get up again if you let me fall

If you wanna get down,
wrap me up in plastic
because I'm feeling pornographic now.
I think I'm feeling sick again;;
We're making up with sex again

It's no big deal.
Break her heart.
Let her down.
Make her cry.
You love her, right?
Everything is fine.
Hold her hand.
Lead her on..
it's no big deal..
she's just a girl

not even makeup could make her
look beautiful;; because real
beauty is loving yourself && that'`s
something she could never do

Suicide is contagious.. Look around your family..
Look closely at that four year old playing with
his cars on the rug.. Kill yourself tonight && he
Might do it 10 years from now..

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain

I'd collapse to the grass,
With your notes ringing in my head.
Let the rain fill my mouth,
& in a couple hours...
I'll be dead, but all the while;
My lips are whistling our tune

Nothing.
Nothing is wrong,
& asking is against the rules.
Crying is against the rules.
You're strong,
Don't let them break you.
They're trying to destroy you.

but sometimes acting happy
makes you hurt that much more
she cuts her wrist to watch it bleed
hoping someone will save her

she looks down at her damaged arm
& all the harm she has done
every r.e.g.r.e.t she lives with
& she'd do anything to go back to the day
she held the razor in her hand,
twist the story around && put it down
she'd do anything to get rid of her awful scars
& her painful memories ///
but she won't forget the pain that put them there

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye...

so cut the rope lets give them another chance
they're not the first ones to fake romance
can't you see apologies bleed from their eyes
but trust is all we need.

they say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven but
they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has
gone to hell

want a boy who will give me his favorite sweatshirt
& he will always whisper something sweet in my ear.
even if we are a million years old,
butterflies will still go crazy inside me

today i prayed the car would
crash..youd hear the news &
youd think of me as much as
ive thought of you

do you know how it feels to be dead while alive, to fall asleep; each night to the sound of your cries, to have your life change in the blink of an eye, to discover your reality was nothin but lies? Do you know how it feels to want someone to blame, to find yourself alone when you`'re in the greatest pain, to shed a river of tears at the mention of a name, to realize that from this date forward things will never be the same? Do you know how it feels to learn your best wasn`t good enough,; for some one you love to violate your* ultimate trust, to find out all those words were just cold-hearted bluffs, to accept that the future holds no more promise for us? ;Do you know how it feels to make a fresh start to keep a smile on your Face after your whole world fell apart?

this summer let's make is look like the || movies ||.
 i want to fall in love with you && drink c h e a p w i n e *
 in the moonlight <3 we could run away & forever have those memories . . . of [ lovers ]<3

 here comes the rain [ again ]
falling from the stars *
drenched in my pain a g a i n
becoming who we . are  <3

he told me to take the 'L' out of 'LOVER'
& what i saw made my heart <3
crumble crumble
he told me "It's  O V E R "

Tell her you think shes cool. Tell her why you think shes so cool. Smell her hair. Talk to her in movie theatres. Pick her up and pretend youre going to throw her in the river; shell scream and fight you but secretly, shell love it. Hold her hand and skip. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Pick flowers from other peoples gardens and give them to her. Tell her she looks pretty. Let her pay for stuff if she wants to. Introduce her to your friends as The coolest girl I know. Sit in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, and playgrounds, and train stations. Tell her dirty jokes. Tell her stupid jokes. Write poems bout her. Just walk around with her. Throw pebbles at her window at night. When she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. Take her to shows of bands shes never heard of. Hold her hand in the mosh pit. Let her fall asleep in your arms.Call her. Call her back if she calls you. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Get her mad, then kiss her. Give her piggy-back rides. Go see her band play even if they really suck, and tell her they were great. Give her space if she needs it. Push her on swings. Stay up with her all night when shes sick. Make up pet names for her, but cool ones, not sappy ones. Teach her guitar. Lend her your cds. Write on her. Make her mixtapes. Write her letters. If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour train trip. take her to cool shopes but let her take you to even coolers ones. Listen to all the bands she mentions. Dont tell her that her favorite bands suck. When shes sad, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything. Buy her ice cream. Let her take all the photos of you she wants. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. Kiss her in the rain.When you fall in love with her, tell

You look so obvious... predictable...
And some day your games will catch up to you

Death don't seem so bad, when I'm with you
My only love, so close your eyes
Kiss me one last time,
We're gonna die, but not our love

I'll tear your heart out,
Oh, ex-love of mine,
Sing that song of loneliness.
That one that no one hears but you.
Then you'll hurt like I do.

she swears the moon don't hang quite as high
as it used to & she only sleeps when it's
raining and she screams & her voice is straining

The girl
Looks in the mirror
What she sees is not to her taste
I hate the size of my waist
My thighs are to big
My stomach is to fat
My eyes are too blue
My hair is to icky
My arms to lose
And legs to round
Feet are gigantic
And I'm too tall
She’s not beautiful in her mind;
no not at all
she can't see her inner beauty;
so her self esteem is to low
she cant see how she looks to others
no she just doesn’t know..

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised

Despite my pain, I got in my car
Had just enough strength to make it to the ER
I was long gone when you heard about my death
"Explore the memories" is what I said with my last breath

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete

I dont know what Im drinking doll face
but if this is love Pour me another glass

do you know it doesn't change,
the way i feel about you at the
end of the day. 'cause i know
that all i want is what you got.
ALL i WANT iS WHAT Y0U G0T.

i know you don`t do it purposly
but, you give me ( b u t t e r f l i e s <3 )

sometimes i wish i had never met you. because then i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there. - Good Will Hunting

everytime she laughs, she hopes he is
watching, not so she can let him see
she is happy but so maybe, just maybe
he will fall for her s/m/i/l/e just
as hard as she fell for his.

tell me you`ve had trouble sleeping. that you toss & turn from side to side; that it`s my face you`re seeing in your dreams at night. tell me that you wake up crying && you`re not exactly sure why. tell me that some-thing is missing in your life. tell me that you live to live, and that forever is never enough. tell me that you`ve waited all your life to see ; that you want so badly to believe; tell me it`s not just me..

Honestly, I'm crazy about him. But that doesn't make me stupid. I've been hurt enough times to learn my lesson. It's not like he's the only guy that has ever looked at me. And why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't appreciate me, when you and I both know I could do so much better? He knows where to find me if he wants, but my world's not going to stop and wait for him. And if he does come back, who's to say that I'll even be here when he does?

if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. and when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free
- Dawsons Creek

I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I've seen. Of what I've done. Of who I am. But most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life the way I feel when I'm with you. -- Dirty Dancing*

she has bite marks on her tongue from all the things shes never said

want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled even if something was wrong, the one who would brighten your day even if she couldnt brighten her own

All the best love StOries
have one thing in common..
you have to gO againsT`
the odds to get there

it's like taking me to the [[highest mountain]]
showing me the world && saying
"this is what you can't have."

life isn't a destination - it's a journey. we all come upon unexpected curves and turning points - everything that happens to us shapes who we are becoming, and in the adventure of each day, we discover the important things in life and why they are important

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Come back to me, To me.
Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Back to me, To me
I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.
Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so.. far.
--From first to last

Any teen who can wake up in the morning and be willing to face another painful, agonizing day out there in that dark, cold, ugly world is mentaly powerful. The one with so many shattered hearts & broken dreams just searching relentlessly for something, someone to hold on to & beleive in. No one in the world is as strong as a teen trying to persevere in this media-centered culture were living in. Always being pursueded to act like someone else, look like someone else, talk like someone else... be someone else. Listening to rumors and lies said about them.. crying themseleves to sleep at night.. being made fun of for looks, and interests, and as a result, suiciides.. shootiings.. depressions.. and sometimes leading up to even terrorism. So think about the things you say and do before you pursue them, because the actions you preform today, mite have an effect on the world tomorrow. . .



& it takes all i have to not call you, not IM you, not think about you every minute of the day

don't wanna fall for him again.. don`t think i can take the pain.. don't wanna have these feelings if he doesn't feel the same. don`t want my heart to jump when i haven`t talked to him for a while. don`t wanna see him grin if I'm not the one who`s makin him smile. don't wanna try to explain if he`ll never understand. i don't want tears in my eyes every time I see his face. don't want my heart to be empty if he`s the only one who can fill the space. i don't want to have to smile at him when i really wanna cry. don`t want him to wave hello if he really means goodbye. don`t wanna tell him or let my feelings show. don`t wanna get hurt as a result of his little game. but all he has to do to get me back is simply just say my name

you know that place between sleep and awake? that place where u still remember dreaming? thats where i'll always love you. thats where i'll be waiting.



those feelings that` are the most painful
are those ones that nobody can explain
no quote can describe.. '& no tears or
smiles can make them go away.*they're
the ones that hurt the deepest the`ones
that last the longest & take F0REVER to
forget about

She finally lets go of her fake smile
and the tears slowly roll down her
face as she whispers in the mirror
--» I dont wanna be me

I am the author of my life.. x3 'Unfourtunatly I am writing in pen
And cant erase my m i s t a k e s*'

Life is like freshly fallen snow ; Be careful where
y0u walk because every step is going to show

...and when you think life can`t get any worse...
it takes a ((turn)) and becomes simply
* _ A m a Z i N g _

DUST OFF YOUR HEART
TAKE IT OFF THE SHELF
YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER
TO LOVE YOURSELF _____*

promises are just lies with
pretty ribbons tied to them*

A BR0kEN BEAUtY A l0St l0VEd S0Ul,filLEd WitH EM0ti0NS ShE C0UldNt C0NtR0l.
thE SMilE tHAt f00lEd, thE tWiNklE iN HER EYES,
N0B0dY kNEW thE hiddEN SECREtS, hiddEN liES.
thE tEARS tHAt fAlL At NiGHt iN BED,
thE th0UGHtS tHAt R0llEd iNSIdE HER HEAd.iF i
diE t0MARR0W, SHE tH0UGHt,
WH0 W0Uld CARE ANd WH0 W0Uld N0t?
WH0 W0Uld lAY A R0SE UP0N MY GRAVE,
ANd WHiSPER A SiMPlE PRAYER,
WH0 W0Uld BE tHERE?SHE dRiftS 0FF t0 dREAM AB0Ut A BEttER dAY,
d0ESNt kN0W WHAt t0 d0,
d0ESNt kN0W WHAt t0 SAY.
tHE liFE SHE HAS WilL REMAiN A MYStERY,
tHE PAiN SHE FEElS WilL AlL BE UNSEEN.
tHE kEY t0 HER HEARt HAS N0t BEEN UNl0CkEd,
f0R SHE St0PS tHE fAlL,
SHE WANtS t0 kN0W H0W t0 l0VE,
BUt Y0U NEEd t0 lEARN t0 l0VE Y0URSElF
iF Y0U WANt t0 lEARN t0 l0VE At AlL.

He means so much to me,
I just wish he knew,when I'm around him
the sky's a different blue.
When he talks to me,
his knees start to shake,
the last thing I wantis another heartbreak.
If he would love me like I do,
I could tell him
that I will always be true.
But when I try to talk
I just don't know what to say,
Because I know he doesn't
feel the same way...

Love is
being happy for the other person when they are happy
being sad for the other person when they are sad
being together in good times
and being together in bad times
Love is the source of strength
Love is
being honest with yourself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the truth
and never pretending
Love is the source of reality
Love is
an understanding that is so complete that
you feel as if you are a part of the other person
accepting the other person just the way they areand not trying to change them to be something else
Love is the source of unity

Love is
the excitement of planning things together
the excitement of doing things together
Love is the source of the future
Love is
in the fury of the storm
the calm of the rainbow
Love is the source of passion
Love is
knowing that the other person
will always be with you regardless of what happens
missing the other person when they are away
but remaining near in heart at all times
Love is the source of security

Love is the
source of life

Theres a line of black water coming from her eye
Hes won now its not a tie
She always said she didnt care and she was strong
I guess now its proven that she was dead wrong
He got the best of her and didnt care
Their right when they say lifes not fair

you left without a goodbye
without a warning that i'd never see you again
im leaving you the same way
(*bang bang*)

and she sat there for hours thinking and recollecting on how things used to be and she laughed and she cried and she couldnt help but think of what she wouldnt do to get them back to that way once again when her life actually had a purpose

You were born inside of a raindrop
I watched you falling to your death
And the sun, well it could not save you
It had fallen down too, now the streets are wet

Shes not one to kiss and tell
But one day she lost it all
Like the good times went up for sale
And thats when she started to fall
It all went away so fast
And the memories just dont last
All her mistakes and faults
Are what she dreads the most
They seem to be set on default
And everything right , seems so close.
her brown eyes reflect hidden pain
and cry tears of crimson rain
Gasping for air , it all seems so clear
Oh , how she reeks of hopeless fear.

she sits in the corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped around in promises
that no one seems to keep

his head was a faucet leaking love,
laughter and lies:
all his secret wishes,
all his world famous sighs

so won't you pull the fucking plug, doctor?
won't you cut the cord?
because you can't put the life back into this hospital ward

do you know the difference
between a memory and fog?
and do you know the difference
between a laugh and a sob

Shes lying on her bed staring at the ceiling
All the lights turned off, its 3 am
Headphones around her ears dark feelings
Staring within and yet she lies there paralyzed
Uttering not a single word

Im always going to love you
But youre never going to know
Because no matter what I do
Im not brave enough to let it show

He pretends like shes nothing
Boy, I know shes your whole world

but sometimes acting happy
makes you hurt that much more
she cuts her wrist to watch it bleed
hoping someone will save her

she looks down at her damaged arm
& all the harm she has done
every r.e.g.r.e.t she lives with
& she'd do anything to go back to the day
she held the razor in her hand,
twist the story around && put it down
she'd do anything to get rid of her awful scars
& her painful memories
but she won't forget the pain that put them there

now i am lying on the table with everything
you said. it will all catch up eventually.well
it 'caught up & honestly the weight of my
decicisions were impossible to hold. but
they were never yours.

Forget his name,
Forget his walk,
Forget the way he used to talk,
Forget the love that you once knew,
Remember now,
There's someone new.
Forget the fun that you once shared,
forget the fact that he once cared,
Forget the time you spent together,
Remember now,
He's gone forever.
Forget the times they played your song,
Forget you cried all night long,
Forget how close you once were,
Remember now,
he belongs to her.
Forget you memorized his every part,
Forget how he held your heart,
Forget the things he used to say,
Remember now,
He's gone away.
Forget the times he used to phone,
Forget the night you were all alone,
Forget the times you wore his ring,
Remember now,
She's everything.
Forget the thrills when he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the way he said your name,
Remember now,
Things aren't the same.
Forget the times you looked into his eyes,
Forget you died when he said those goodbyes...

so you buried all his clothes and
burned the letters he wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better. does it make it
any better? and the plaster dented from your
fist in the hall where you had your
first kiss reminds
you that the memories will fade.

they're playing love songs on the radio
i cant relate to that right now .
see, my life has its ups and downs
its high points and its low points
and right now i need some excitement
i might even need you <33

what can i say, we have so many memories..
so many things to look back on. i learned so much
from you, gained so much. i loved the way you made
me laugh, i hated the way you made me cry, but what
i hated the most, was when we said goodbye..

sometimes the one you love
turns out to be the one who hurts you the most,
& sometimes the friend who take you into his arms
& cries when you cry
turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted

You are a getaway car - a rush of blood to the head
But me, I'm just the covers on top of your bed
You steer in a rear view mirror - make my head swim
I keep you warm and won't ask you where you've been

take him & cut him out into little stars
& he will make the face of heaven so fine
that all of the world will be in love with night

& all you wanted was someone who cared?
Well guess what sweetie? I cared.

I'm the girl that everyone turns to to fix their problems.
Well this girl has her own problems.
Even though I don't show them I have them.
I cry myself to sleep each night hoping and praying that everything will be okay.

You'll never know how many times I've cried
How many cuts I hide
How many times I wished I would die
No you'll never understand

Hold your sadness like a puppet,
just keep putting on the play.

best friends are totally aware of how retarded you
are ;; but still manange to be seen with you in public

you said you didn`t want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean that you closed your eyes when i cried?

every guy always asks me
"what does he have that i don'`t??"
& i reply
"my heart .. "

What is cute?
Cute is young & inexperienced.
Cute is holding hands in the car
& kissing at the red lights

You just have to live your life
not caring and shake off the drama
just to prove that you're better
than they think you are.

long sleeved shirts
bracelets cover wrists
no one can know
the truth behind this

Sit down, remind me how,
this is the same old story
of growing up and getting lost.

Angels just love weddings, don’t you think?
No one sees them, but we know they’re there,
Golden halos lassoing their hair,
Embodying a love beyond the brink.
Love draws them in like revelers to drink,
Alive in love, breathing love like air,
Amorous in ways we could not bear,
Needing us to be love’s earthly link.
Do, then, with an angel’s ecstasy,
Make your lives an amorous delight,
Intimate in ways both sure and sly,
Chaste but in the chamber of your love.
Heaven is not quite a fantasy;
Angels hover near, awaiting night.
Eden was a place where none was shy,
Loving as the naked lust might move.

&& She saves his voice mails
So whenever she is lonely
She can listen to his voice

I feel alright, sometimes I dream of her and I feel pain
like regret for the decision I was forced to make

You're trying to warm my heart
But you freeze my blood.
There's ice inside my veins.
I'm only dying to watch your face when I turn away.

One day, all our scars will disappear, like the stars at dawn
and all of our pain, will fade away when morning comes
and on that day when we look backwards we will see, that everything is changed and all of our trials, will be as milestones on the way.

Shes a wound inside my head
It hurts to see what you've become
If it were me and I were you
I'd run away too.

his head was a faucet leaking love,
laughter and lies:
all his secret wishes,
all his world famous sighs

she'd do anything to be the sparkle in his eyes
she would suffer she would fight &
compromise. she's been wishin up the stars
that shine so bright for answers to questions
that will haunt her tonight

& today she sat there crying on her bed, holding her phone..waiting for his call..but at the same time..knowing that it will never come..

Im ready to give up and give in,
everyday i loose more love for myself,
i just really dont care bout myself anymore,
so here goes my last goodbye,
sorry to this world but im out of cries.

& no matter what, i`ll always love you..
through tear- stained cheeks, struggled
smiles... & fading memories.. x33

I may not get to see you as often as I'd like-
-I may not get to hold you through the night-
-But deep inside my heart, i know its true-
-No matter what i do, ill always be in love with you

i hate the way you can push me
to the limits with the things you do
&& then you know just the right time
to say something sweet to make me
fall for you all over again . . *

and she wanted so badly for him to tell her he loved her...and when he did, all she could do was cry...because she knew it was all a lie
.if i could show you
how much you've hurt me;;
you'd never be able to
look me in the eyes again

Oh, she’s plastic and she knows it.
She tries her hardest too.
Beauty is skin deep.
In this world of Barbie girls,
She’s just like all the rest.

you're looking quite shy, sugar
you've got some heat on that stare
you've got them tattered blue jeans on.
and you're doing that thing with your hair.
and this bed could use a secret,
and these pounding hearts could keep it.
if you could, then i could, i swear

yesterday you gave your burden a name.
yesterday you have your burden a face.
but your burden looks a lot like her


i don't ever want to see you again, my friend.
this is the end. out of the house, she grabs the keys,
runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter.
that way the impact will be much better
'cause i regret every thing that i said
to ever make her feel like she was something special,
or that she ever really mattered.
Did she ever really matter?

.just look at this cardboard cutout, this puppet that you've become. let me be the first to acknowledge, you've no pride, you've no purpose. it's so typical to think less is more when you're out of the lead

tired of being this girl that i'm not
acting wasnt on my list of life
so let the real me come out
because i'm tired of being fake

.put away the book.. the description,
the tradition, the authority && take the
journey of self-discovery. love, and dont
be caught in l[ opinions ]l && ideas bout
what love is or should be. when you love,
everything will come riight. love has it`s
own action. love, and youu will know the
blessings of it. keep away from the auth-
ority who tells youu what love is and what
it is not. no authority knows and he who
knows cannot tell love.. and there is
understanding.

Chew me up
Spit me out
Act like I dont matter now
Keep it hidden
Dont let them know
That youll never let me go

Theres nothing you can do
The scars and blood and tears dont help
I cant get over you.

.My eyes were screaming good intentions while my heart was bleeding bad.  <S.S.

.Dont worry about me,
In the end I will be fine.
Im just the girl forgotten,
The girl always left behind

.It's hard to wait on something that you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want

.When he says he loves me, it only means he loves me at this particular instant. Like his promises, which he never keeps. Why does he torment me like this, when he could finish me off at once. ?

we talk like we're okay,
we talk like everythings fine,
but i broke down today,
and you told me to pretend it will be okay,
but the truth is, im scared,
and how can i pretend?
When nothing was ever there

& she didn't know it at the time..
but she was falling in love..
just to fall apart

and she sat there for hours thinking and recollecting on how things used to be and she laughed and she cried and she couldnt help but think of what she wouldnt do to get them back to that way once again when her life actually had a purpose

& maybe next time i'll remember
not to tell you somthing stupid like
i'll never leave your side, like the
oldest movie i ever saw was the one
we wrote together. i said i hate you,
but i'd never change a thing..

i HATE iT WHEN MY CELLPH0NE RiNGS
& Y0UR NAME D0ESN'T SH0W
i HATE iT WHEN i HEAR 0UR S0NG
iT KiLLS ME L0NG & SL0W
i HATE THE WAY Y0U STiLL SMiLE AT ME
EVEN TH0UGH SHE'S AT Y0UR SiDE
i HATE THE NiGHTS WHEN i'M ALL AL0NE
& ALL THE TiMES i CRiED
i HATE THE WAY Y0U SAY MY NAME
0R JUST THE WAY Y0U L00K
i HATE THE WAY i KN0W Y0U
H0W i CAN READ Y0U LiKE A B00K
i HATE THE WAY i D0N'T HATE Y0U
BECAUSE i STiLL L0VE Y0U S0
i HATE THE WAY Y0U'LL NEVER SEE
& THE WAY Y0U'LL NEVER KN0W..</3

away is the only way he will ever feel what
its like without you ... even though its the
hardest thing to do .. do it for him

the past can hurt, but the way i see it,
you can either run from it, or learn from it.
-the lion king

she tears you down, darling
says your nothing at all, but i'll pick you up darling.
when she lets you fall
cause your like a diamond
& she treats you like glass
yet you begged her to love you
</3 for me you wont ask </3

You dnt know how much i need you in my life. My whole attitude has changed since i've met you. No matter what, you always made me smile & laugh. Don't ever think you are anything less than perfect. I love you. you have to stand up for what you believe in& sometimes you have to stand alone.  

[[ fake is the new trend..& ur all the rage ]]

Tragedy blows through your life like a tornado, uprooting everything. Creating chaos. You wait for the dust to settle and then you choose. You can live in the wreckage and pretend it's still the mansion you remember. Or you can crawl from the rubble and slowly rebuild. -Veronica Mars

the saddest lies are the ones we tell ourselves

Love is a crazy, messed up emotion. It will make you smile ;; make you laugh ;; get you crying ;; make you feel like dying ;; But in the end, no matter how much it makes you feel, you know it's worth every single second.

 I want to learn to play guitar, I want to learn to sing. I want to be miss popular and I want to know everything. I want you to hold me in your arms, I want everything to blend. I want to make it a fairy tale and hope it never ends

We go to school for thirteen years
& the one thing they never teach us
is .h o w. to say |g o o d - b y e|

Everytime I make a wish
Its the same one over and over again
(( Just hasn't came true yet . . . ))

The best things in life don't happen unless you take risks. Risk yourself and throw your heart out onto the table. Be who you are and hope people accept you. If they don't, too bad. Always be real, never fake. Smile when you're happy, cry when you're sad, never hold your emotions inside. Let yourself risk getting hurt, let yourself try something new. Follow your heart and do what you feel is right. Not what other people tell you to do. Fall in love; take a chance. Hope the other person feels the same. Love is a risk, it could bring either pleasure or pain. Sometimes both. Life is a gamble, you never know what it'll bring. Live in the moment and don't dwell on the past. Find the good in everybody. Think positive; do positive. Break the rules and take a chance of getting caught. Dance in the rain when everyone else is inside. Don't follow the crowd. Who cares if you fit in? Wear your emotions on your sleeve and dive into love

Whats weird is that day by day
[ nothing ] seems to change but
----before you know it -----
everythings || different ||

i wanna be like the    *  amazing seashell
you find    -   washed    -     along the tide.
BEAUTiFUL…FLAWLESS…&& SPECiAL
But       [ only ]     in your     eyes    <3

Maybe it's the way you grab my hand and hold it or the way you kiss me or maybe it's the way you put your arms around me. Maybe it's the way you look at me and your smile just makes me melt. Maybe it's the way we can talk on the phone for hours about absolutely nothing at all but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my life. Maybe it's the way that I want to break down and cry when I think about how you hold me up on a pedestal. Maybe thats it, that makes me want you so bad

you shouldn't worry about when
people talk about you , when they
don't talk about you thats when ;;
you should worry because it shows
they are just not interested in you &
what you do . - nick lachey ;; xoO 

i want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eye, the everything you need, just what you wantâI want to be your perfection.

sometimes its easier for me to pretend rather
than face my feelings. sometimes its easier to try to make it alone rather than risk gettingg hurt again. sometimes its easier to be numb towards certain people so i dont let them get too close. sometimes im scared, but whenn i act numb towards you- it doesnt mean i dont care... it means i care too muchWhen I’m with you, I dont have to pretend to smile

her feelings she hides.
her dreams she can't find.
she's losing her mind.
she's fallen behind.
she can't find her place.
she's losing her